Late night thoughts....

For those of you who may not know...if it's two in the morning, and all you have to drink in the refridgerator is a Mountain Dew...just stay thirsty and forget the Mountain Dew.  Otherwise, you will not sleep, even on a night where your infant son is uncharacteristically calm and sleeping...

I go back to work soon.  To be honest, there is very little there that I am looking forward to go back to.  I am constantly slammed with contradictions and impossible situations.  I spend weeks doing top level assignments only to be observed on the one off day of the six weeks.  In an observation I am praised for my charisma in the classroom and my ability to hold a student's attention, and yet two minutes later I am told I need to not be in the front of the class so much.  I go to seminar after seminar about how students lack the proper foundations in math to succeed, and yet I am rebuked for taking too long on a topic to make sure the foundations are built.  The people that tell me to teach bell to bell pay money to hire a professional educational motivator, who then tells me not to teach bell to bell.  And at the end of it all, as much as I try to teach math so that life skills are learned, all that really matters is how well my students can guess on one test on one day.  Its not about educating young people....its about handing out as many diplomas as possible.  As I said, there is very little to look forward to when I return.

And yet, sitting here watching my little boy sleep....it all suddenly becomes worth it.  Watching his little chest rise and fall, I come to realize that I would do anything just to ensure that he has moments like this.  I would go to the bottom of a coal mine, fight the storms of a hundred seas, throw myself in the path of a thousand bullets, endure every hardship, pain, risk, danger, and disappointment known to man...just to make sure Brayson gets a good night's rest.  No matter how frustrated I get with the education system...for now, it keeps food in his mouth, a roof over his head, and clothes on his back.

So bring it on.  Give me the kids that don't do their homework and expect to pass.  Give me the naive parents who think their child is mankind's savior.  Give me the administrators so far removed from the classroom they can't remember what its like to teach at all.  Give me the state legislators that make standards with no concept how to implement them in the real world.  Give me a job whose pay is no where near the amount it should be for all the certification crap one has to go through to get that job.  Bring it all.  I'll take it all on, just so my little boy can sleep peacefully.

Yeah.....Mountain Dew at 2 AM is a bad thing.....Don't do it.....

Keep Soaring,

Branson