Looking back on my posts, I realize that the past several have been extremely heavy. I feel like I need to spend some time talking about what good is going on in my life.
Leaving my position as pastor is proving every day to be a good decision. It was a hard one to make, and not one that I made whimsically or even happily. But the returns from that decision, and the rest I've gotten because of it, have been much needed and wonderful.
I spent yesterday afternoon rolling on the floor playing with Brayson and Mandy. I watched him laugh at the goofy faces I made, trip over himself as he slowly tried to understand the mechanics of walking (not there yet, but getting close!!), and give the biggest grin when he heard his Mama talk. He was twenty pounds of pure joy, and I soaked up every second of it that I could.
Brayson's 11 months old today. 1 month short of the Big Time!!
I've spent a lot of time asking some hard questions about my faith. And the answers I've found have been enlightening. I think my relationship with Christ, although difficult and a struggle at times, is the best its been in years. I don't have all the answers, and some answers I may never have, but the journey to find those answers has been edifying so far, and I look forward to where it will lead me and my family next.
Every time I'm asked to step out on faith, there's always that nagging fear that maybe I'm wrong, that things are about to fall apart. But so far, things have actually been falling together. I feel....aligned...in ways I haven't in a long time.
God is good, both in the land that is plentiful and the desert place. Even if nothing was going right, God would still be good. But, for now, He has chosen to place me in the plentiful land. And I am grateful for it.
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